Friday, 26 November 2010

I am now back in the UK
actually, have been back for over a week now.........but didn’t really feel like writing;
have been trying to find my way out of this fog
this surreal world I find myself in now

my father passed away the 3rd of November; with the entire family around him
I still cannot quite believe it
I was so glad to have so many brothers and sisters (um, not a totally common feeling, I must admit)
I don't know how I could have done any of this without them all -
but it was also so heartbreaking to see each of them hurting so much
we all seemed to circle around each other for protection - to help each other

I stayed on, along with two sisters who live in the same city as my mother, to help out a little bit
we will be going back for Christmas (our original plans)
mother is flying back with us to spend New Years in Paris!

I cancelled three shows I was going to be in over the holidays, which in hindsight was a good idea as I haven’t been able to do much and would never have enough things ready to show
while in the US, I did get an email asking me to participate in a local show and have said yes to that
I am only doing one piece; which I am attempting to put together

not sure what is going on......but this is the thinking white beads.........
shimmering on the pale background textures

oh; did I mention that my cameras are not behaving? not ANY of them??! how did this happen? not so good

am also thinking red........a great swathe of bright red.......ripping through this
suppose it is only natural right now

if this doesn’t work - then I can always fall back on another bird, I suppose!

I have been trying to keep up with you all.......maybe not commenting so much but at least looking
hope you will all come back to me too -
and help me get back onto track and find beautiful things again
feel comfortable again

thanks for stopping by