I am now back in the UK
actually, have been back for over a week now.........but didn’t really feel like writing;
have been trying to find my way out of this fog
this surreal world I find myself in now
my father passed away the 3rd of November; with the entire family around him
I still cannot quite believe it
I was so glad to have so many brothers and sisters (um, not a totally common feeling, I must admit)
I don't know how I could have done any of this without them all -
but it was also so heartbreaking to see each of them hurting so much
we all seemed to circle around each other for protection - to help each other
I stayed on, along with two sisters who live in the same city as my mother, to help out a little bit
we will be going back for Christmas (our original plans)
mother is flying back with us to spend New Years in Paris!
I cancelled three shows I was going to be in over the holidays, which in hindsight was a good idea as I haven’t been able to do much and would never have enough things ready to show
while in the US, I did get an email asking me to participate in a local show and have said yes to that
I am only doing one piece; which I am attempting to put together
am also thinking red........a great swathe of bright red.......ripping through this
hm.......
suppose it is only natural right now
if this doesn’t work - then I can always fall back on another bird, I suppose!
I have been trying to keep up with you all.......maybe not commenting so much but at least looking
hope you will all come back to me too -
and help me get back onto track and find beautiful things again
feel comfortable again
thanks for stopping by
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